Welcome, Sunrise! I can completely relate to feeling alone until you came here. Both of my parents are alcoholics, but they always had the appearance of a good life, so somewhere along the way I got the message that getting drunk every night was...normal? You can still have a family, good jobs, ski vacations, graduate degrees, and pass out on the family room rug watching TV. Right? It sounds crazy, but it took me such a long time to understand how abnormal that really is. I'm so glad you decided to post, please stick around.
P.S. So sorry about your dad.