Reality
I have learned more in the past 7 months about addiction than I ever wanted to. I met the "love of my life" 7 months ago and he confessed his addiction soon thereafter. I should have run as fast as I could, but I thought I could help him.
I have read my same story over and over the past few days and each of those have gently reminded me that he is not going to change, only I can change me.
I fell in love with an addict who lies, steals and manipulates. He has court tomorrow for a DUI/controlled substance with property damage and I was the stupid one who bailed him out of jail. Keeping my fingers crossed he shows up for court tomorrow. If not, I will entail the entire bond.
Time for me to rebuild and take my loss for what it is. I will be attending Anon groups this week and counseling.
Thank you all for your stories and for your honesty.