I hope you are feeling better tonight.
I was just thinking along these same lines yesterday - while most of the time I wear my Recovery Badge proudly on my sleeve for all to see, there are some days when it feels like I am defining myself by my damage.
Usually that's a temporary thought because I realize my recovery is all about my GROWTH, not the reasons that brought me to it, but it still crosses my mind from time to time. Usually a good soak in a hot bath (with Epsom salts), yoga & a good night of sleep helps a lot!