I have been married for 23 years until this past June to an AH. It was over a long time before the papers were filed. I totally shut down with him. I am- I think- ready for a new relationship. However, I want it to be a healthy one. I want what I've wanted for years. I know I don't need a relationship to make me whole. I want one. I don't need anyone to take care of me, I can do that on my own. I am self supportive- independent, all those things. My ExAH helped very much in developing my independence.
Lately I have been on those internet dating sites. I have went out with two men. Both nothing I would have for long term. I am frustrated that its not happening as fast as I would like. I want a boyfriend.
Am I being silly, or unrealtistic? Is it ok to want a boyfriend. I know I can live without one. I want the total package though and will not settle for anything less. I tend to find that most of the men on these dating sites are looking for just sex.
