Many of us have tried to drink away the pain or fear, Lost; I certainly did but drinking got me absolutely nowhere; it neither alleviated or reduced the pain and it certainly didn't eliminate it.
I echo the others above; have you tried a regular program of AA? Rehab - inpatient or outpatient?
Don't give up, Lost. Your by-line said that you had lost everything but you mention a wife, two houses, a shiny car. . . . . Maybe everything you have lost is internal; mine was; internal wreckage is awful; do seek help.