Hi Trying
I'm sorry you're struggling.
It varies from person to person but most of us have to deal with cravings for a while, especially if we're stressed or sick or tired or any one of the 100s of reasons we used to drink for...
My advice is don't underestimate this thing - use the support you have, keep fighting the cravings (good tips here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html) and...please don't get discouraged
I dunno about you but I drank for years - it's going to take a little longer than 9 weeks...but you will get better with dealing with cravings and things will get better overall
None of us would stay in recovery if we felt we lost out on the deal
keep the faith - and hope you feel better soon
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