Originally Posted by
plansimake 
I know how it works, and it always won, but this time I will not let it, because this time I am being sober for me... no one pressured me, I am not trying to keep a relationship, I am doing this because a) my rate of consumption, plus the twenty years of it, would kill me before 45, and b) I am tired of knowing deep down what I want and letting my addiction make me unable to achieve it.
plansimake - i feel the same way. 3rd time trying to get sober, but first time it's for me only. no relationship turmoil involved. I went right into pink cloud territory, something i'd never experienced before. I too realized it was either my success or drinking.
Day 20...still on a roll. Longest streak in 5 years, and I'm loving it. Except the weight gain.