What an evening. I am home and dry. Thank you all so much, and ultra, thank you for reminding me of my own tag line that really helped. Jeez that was tough, it just caught me In a way I didn't expect, that's why I hit Sr whilst placing my food order for me and mum. When i went in the pub i felt nothing, sat down, scanned the menu, felt fine. Got to the bar and BOOM. Av. You saved my ass guys and I'm so grateful I could sob. I ordered a super food salad to curb all my cravings, had a pint of diet coke and two pints of water. Felt like I needed to keep my mouth busy! I am now utterly exhausted, but still have 9 weeks. I feel weak, tired, bitter but relieved, and proud. What an emotional roller coaster this is.
Chris I am so glad your day turned out well, what a lovely end to the day xx thanks for your immediate help, so grateful.
Thank you all, you all did a great thing for me today. Thank you so so much xxxx