Oh I thought it might also help me to write down the madness of the relapse before I minimise it in my mind or somehow convince myself it wasn't that bad;
- Driving drunk, to the off-licence, at 10:30 on a Monday morning to buy 12 ciders
- Missing three days of work
- Having such vivid and horrific nightmares I suspect I may have been hallucinating
- Numerous bizarre messages and conversations online to various friends and acquaintances
- Being violently sick and worrying that if I kept throwing up I wouldn't be able to keep the alcohol inside me
- Taking five full binliners of empty cider cans to the recycling centre this morning
This is such madness, I have GOT to stop this cycle.