Hi.
This is often referred to as the ravages of alcoholism. Alcoholism is progressive and deadly sooner than we want.
The way to win is to surrender to the fact that we can’t drink in safety, one day at a time in a row.
It will take work and changes are needed. We have a great tendency to want to do things our way which usually don’t work.
I suggest reading a lot of posts on this site and attend AA meetings even if you don’t want too, it’s a lot healthier than where we are headed if we continue to drink.
BE WELL