I guess I just wish I had someone in my life to share my life with.
My hope is that you become more comfortable and confident being on your own.
Some of my greatest accomplishments have happened after my AXGF and I broke up. Not only do I miss her like Ebola, I don't miss being in a relationship.
One of these days, that may change. But in the meantime, there are things I want to accomplish both professionally and personally, and I don't have the bandwidth to be in a romantic relationship.