Thanks so much to all of you. I was a little too high functioning with my bottle to a bottle and a half of red wine a day. The lies I told myself got old and the depression was rising. I realized that alcohol was the cause of and solution to my problems, HA. Cutting alcohol out was all I needed to do. It wasn't helping my perceived declining health. It WAS CAUSING IT. Unreal how much denial there is about alcohol. The whole "moderation" belief doesn't sit well with me because I cannot imagine poison being good in moderation. It's a big industry that I can't fight, but I can definitely not support or condone it. It has claimed countless lives and I frankly am beginning to hate that it's so widely accepted. Thank you all.