Thanks guys for the encouragement.
Zoso - It's weird, I know I'm not missing out on anything. Their life consists of trying to get money for more drugs. I guess I just wish I had someone in my life to share my life with.
Txhelp - I've always told my XABF that he has it easier in the present bc he can numb himself from any and all pain. However, in the long run, he carries his pain with him, while I deal with my pain and move on. It's ironic. Whenever he has left me to be with another girl, she ALWAYS does drugs with him. I'm the only one of his girlfriends that has never done drugs with him. Lol!
I appreciate all the support. I must admit I was feeling a tad emotional yesterday. I know I just have to push forward, and it will get easy as time goes by.