Carl & Climber, I guess I'm struggling with the addiction/willpower thing. In the past if I want to do something I just set my mind to it and accomplish whatever task it is, there are sometimes I fail but I just get up again and eventually I find success. I guess this is why this is frustrating, I stumble and then don't get back on track. I will get through today (thank you Findingtheway...I've thrown out the word "try") and will have to figure out a plan that works, it is difficult (sounds stupid to say, obvious statement) when you are in a big family and everyone drinks, some more than others. I'm going to read more on the "urge surfing" that Soberwolf sent. Thanks all! Be back at 3:00pm.