MissN, your post really touched me. First, it sure put my petty problems and annoyances into perspective. I'm full of admiration for you coping with all this and remaining clean for 2-1/2 years in spite of it all. I hope you can find a pain clinic as has been suggested, that can provide some new ways of addressing your pain. And I hope you stick around SR - there are many compassionate souls here to turn to when the pain seems like too much.
Take care...
Earlyriser