Hello, Cow,
Good luck with noopept. And with your appointment tomorrow. I'm with you regarding your reluctance to be an in pt. I've seen it from both sides (retired psychiatrist and in pt stays. It's never pretty. But you must do whatever you think is best.
I'm also with you on your last sentence too. I get it.
Had first rtms rx today. Painful and very distressing. Don't have much faith in a good/ not so horrible outcome. 3 more days this week, all next week. I don't know if I'll manage.
Will be thinking of you tomorrow.