Originally Posted by
Hawks 
An hour or so later & quite a few gins, Ebby was shown the door in a none too gentlemanly fashion.
The history of AA is important (to me) so just a quick correction regarding that meeting between Bill and Ebby. After their meeting, Bill walked Ebby to the subway that night and gave him a warm send off, at least according to the only one of them who was sober that evening. You can hear Ebbys account of it here from about the 30 to 32 minute mark on this recording.
Ebby Thatcher, Ebby's Views , Memphis TN.1958 - RecoveryAudio.org
I've never heard of Bill doing anything like showing Ebby the door. I would be very curious where the reference for that information comes from Hawks.
Anyway
Janie, Congrats on working up the courage to go to your first meeting. I can relate quite a bit to what you wrote. All the best to you.