i am so sorry to hear about your father.
does your doctor know that you are unable to take certain pain meds?
maybe it is time to reach out ftf to family, counseling, your friends and referrals to groups, whatever it takes to stop from jumping off the cliff, cos it is a hard landing, very painful.
i don't have trouble stopping percocet or vicodin, mostly because they screw up my stomach, so it is hard for me to relate.
coming here and staying in touch, helps keep me accountable, even after 4 years, it is like brushing my teeth. and for me it helps tremendously..
visit 24 hours?
Dee is correct, better here than by yourself, strength in numbers for sure!