I'm glad Dee.
Because my life is too hard for me to deal with any longer.
I have two choices. Give up, or believe in something bigger than me.
I choose to believe that what I found here is real and people do actually care.
My dad is in hospital with pneumonia and heart failure.
I am no longer sober. I lost it on pain meds and then just gave up.
I am currently at risk of losing my flat.
I have Venus to look after, and as always, in my very darket days, that has kept me from total addictive insanity.
I am a wreck.
I would never have come back if least didn't chase after me...
I truly no longer believed I deserved any salvation.
I am aware that my mind is clouded, but there is still a part of me that believes that I will be better sober and clear.
This is really hard ~ but this is exactly the truth. (If that makes sense).
V xx