Nuu I have taken the liberty of editing two of your posts to point out something that you already know but may have missed during this difficult time.
Originally Posted by
Nuudawn 
Someone leaves the real me..
Not the drinking me...
And that just destroys my understanding of everything.
Originally Posted by
Nuudawn I finally PICKED UP the phone and gave him an earful. The truth is..he DOESN'T know me.
In your OP you said he had left the "real" you as opposed to the drinking you but, as you rightly point out, he didn't know you.
Your sober antennae went up when this relationship involved constant texting rather than meeting up. Your antennae was up about a number of other things too but you ignored your own sense and judgement.
It will be a damn lucky guy who ends up having a relationship with you. You've learned an important lesson here, put your trust in Nuu.