Hi Leshar -
Glad you posted. I was wondering how you were doing.
Of course you are a good person. You are worth the fight. I'm glad to hear you are getting out. Have you considered volunteering for a few hours a week somewhere? Some organization associated with something that is personally important to you? Just to get you outside your head for a few hours and focused on something else....
I know it's tough. If you're strong enough not to drink then I know you are strong enough to get through this. Hang in there.
NCG