Was in a funky, low mood last night. Lots of changes going on I do not like and a lot of the f-- it thoughts that were triggered by ugly thoughts of jealousy and "why me??" or "why not me... what do I always do wrong? " self pity and beating myself up.. that usually sent me to a drink/addiction binge. But I am stronger, more grounded and these things can be a blip or a challenge, not a plunge to doom.
Dr trying out the new regime and dosages of meds too, that always can mess one up as we try to find a good combo.
I like helping the newer members since with 18 months under my belt I have a bit of wisdom to share. But I do know what Toots is saying, I get frustrated with the ones that just seem to not get it. There is one now who has attended the SR meetings and I have gotten to know a bit through SR who is posting daily of their struggle. I just want to scream "do what you know you need to do, no more excuses".
But then I have been there, so I can relate.
Off to catch up some more with the SR gang, have a good one Overs!
