Originally Posted by
firewalkwithme 
bottom line, again long story short... how can i make somebody understand or believe me that i've always cared and been in love with them? that it was always and only them? that it was just this disease and ridiculous split personality like symptom? i call that the truth, but how can i try and make it be known? if theres one thing i long for, it'd be to make things work out with her. i truly felt we had something beyond one of a kind.
Speaking as a fellow alcoholic, let her go. You need to work on you and if you love her like you say you do, you will let her go. She needs to heal and recover from this and she needs to do this on her own and in her own time. You need to fix yourself on your own, concentrate on you.
Sometimes we do so much damage that there is no going back for the other person. There are things they can't unsee or unhear. Sometimes we have to accept this.
Keeping you and her in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that recovery can bring you peace.