Hi Serindad,
I like what Fantail and Dee said. And everybody else too actually.
You asked her a question and she answered from her perspective. You asked the same question here and got more perspectives.
I think the real question to ask now is which perspectives will serve you best and help you get you where you want to be? In all truth from my perspective it could be any one of the many to pick from. I could use the few and it's hard to motivate me to say I will be one more and hard is okay..I'll be determined. Or I could grab on to the positive ones and feel motivation from a different view of feeling I'm not alone and anything is possible.
Some days I need one and some days I need the other. Some days I need both.
I'm glad you are feeling better and got more perspectives to think about. Great job doing that. Really. You have a great thread going here of how you worked through this. Very helpful.