Cow, I'm glad to see you. I've reread your post about the measuring several times. The one sentence that really stuck with me was the part about it not working any more. For me, it got to that point. The point I recognized it wasn't working at all any more. I'd given up on just having a few long before. I knew it was all or nothing. I guess I finally had to go with drinking nothing! I couldn't get drunk enough.
I hope you know we will be here for you. Come here and post before you start rattling around with the measuring insanity.
And I do think you might like the Connie Willis books. She's an excellent story teller. In Passage there's some bits where you may think she's having contiguity problems but she wraps that up with a big red bow!
OK, so let's all try to help each other. I wish I could find a way to help others find that switch that flipped for me. I do have peace in my life most of the time. Except when the stars get wacky. (you know I'm kidding)
Love from Lenina