I am so sorry that you are starting over. But you are not alone. I am, unfortunately, drinking tonight. I cannot seem to break out of my habitual cycle. I know I need to. I am scared. I know the sooner I break out of this cycle, the sooner my life can start getting straightened out. But as of yet, I have been unable to get sober. Keep trying.. as I will also. I have faith in both of us!