Being alone
I have all sorts of anxiety for different reasons. Usually related to stress.
But my biggest fear is being alone.
Not because I'm scared someone will come jump into my window, that I welcome with open arms and a finger on the trigger.
No I fear being alone emotionally.
I fear being without him. And he's leaving me for good after 3 years of what I would gather as the most beautiful yet toxic relationship I'll ever have.
And he will be gone. I'll just be staring at these walls, wondering what he's doing and wishing he cared about how I felt and wishing he was here to hold me at night.
It's down to one day untill he is gone. I was done for a while and now I'm having a melt down.