The more times you continue to contact him, the more you prolong your own pain. He is an alcoholic. That is their bride, their #1, their everything. That does not mean YOU did anything wrong. It just means he is an addict that cannot or will not stop.
We try and try to find some big "REASON' when sometimes we need to just look at the hard, cold facts.
I am sorry. Keep going to the meetings and working on you. You deserve it.