If you ran 10 miles every day after work, your brain would be saying "run" every time you got home from the office. In this case, your brain is saying "drink" because that's what alcoholics do. Many people find healthier habits to focus on - the trick is turning a drinking habit into a sobriety habit. It's a pain in the rear but it's worth it. Kick the drink and kick the benzos - your body is telling you it's had enough. Good luck in working on starting this new lifestyle!