It took many attempts and many failures for me to achieve sobriety.I could always stop drinking,but not stay stopped.
I once went 3years sober,then drank again for 17more years,that told me I couldn't do it on my own.Despite huge reservations about AA I became desperate enough to go to an AA meeting,I have been going ever since and never needed to pick up that first drink.
I know my Alcoholism wants me dead,in the meantime it will settle for me being drunk,I have to remain vigilant all the time.