Mavis, you're doing so amazing. I'm so impressed by your ability to post the good and bad, and to keep moving even when things get tough. I know what it's like to have a child with special needs who needs you to be sober but also, often needs ALL of you and then some...and in the short term, alcohol does help with that.
You can do this. Actually, you ARE doing it...slips and all. You're my hero. And for what it's worth, I'm right there with you in the ups and downs lately. In the end, I know we will both get sober and stay that way. (((hugs)))