how many times did it take????
I cant really believe it, after such a good happy week I just drank a bit on Fri and shedload last night.... Why why why.... Well I know,why, my oh wanted me to drink with him, and then was surprised when it lead to so much.... Although after 20 years of the same thing happening in not sure why he is,surprised.... Our so looked forward to night out was ruined, we argued horribly, he was so ill andblamed me for not being able to stop, says I need to grow up and move on.
But my real question is this, will it ever end, will I ever be able to stop.... Or am I trapped in this cycle forever! Has anyone actually made it to sober after so many false starts, or have I doomed it to failure???
I feel no hope... Finally the change has not happened.... I have failed.
Can anyone give me hope????
Sorry for such a downer.....