It was a good meeting...and I am glad I went...to share was good and brought up the sad and the powerless feelings but I was more or less able to leave them there with those wonderful people.
I am writing down what twofish is saying...remember to breath...I am so anxious and nervous these days since being let go from work...and trying to work my own recovery program and stay in the moment...today things got the best of me...but got some actions done in the week and dealt with working and doing those actions during the inside critic trying to shut me down. wish i knew something else to do but am just going through it and praying and reading and this particular Thursday meeting is good...and trying to just remember that God loves me as I struggle to do what I am supposed to do...and not always be lost in taking care of others. It really makes a difference in my energy level...taking care of myself or practicing self care as I know it...is really energy consuming. Tears are coming on some days which are good as I don't cry easily and so to cry is to be able to feel and to let some of the stuff captured in my body (can't really figure out what it is around--there is enough) leave in the form of good chemicals in the tears...at least I hope that is what is true.