Thank you for this post...don't fully understand runner...but when I get feeling betrayed...I tend to say things (in writing) that allow the other person to let go or yes, fire me...and I am working to deal with that in myself. I know that it is in me...and I am working through huge difficulties in relationships with kids and husband...I spent a long time dealing with my mother and sister and at least after 13 years...no longer have the cravings...for them to love me when I am in trouble or need love and care...instead of it always being the other way around.
I don't really know how to do more than I am doing now...working on loving myself enough as that is what the long-term advice through many avenues says to do ...but it is hard work and I am anxious and exhausted today. This post was exactly what I needed to read.