Oh Mavis, I'm sorry. It does seem like all s... Is hitting the fan since the last drink doesn't it. Responsibilities, blech. Problems, blech. Everyone else gets it easy, blech. Just stay away from that bottle. That's just going to put everything you have to deal with away and then add all that lovely guilt and self loathing. Do me a favor. Even if you don't want to. Write down, physically write down three good things that happened today. Or write it on here. No matter how stupid they seem. This has been working for me. Or three things you are grateful for without buts after it. Sometimes all I have is "grateful I woke up". I don't know why it works but I have been able to handle bs better doing this.