" The biggest most beautiful mystery, is life experienced through the sharp, clear mind. "
Don't feel too bad about your time - I spent 30 years in the haze, but the early years weren't bad. I knew deep down , after about five years that I should quit, so I was a SLOW learner. It became a crutch for me. But I'm not going to spend much time in regret- that gets me no where , but robbing me of this moment. I really try to stay present as much as possible now. I try to catch myself from thinking too much about the future either. The present is where I need to be - fully. That is the power point for me now. And I am trying to not think as much - creating more quiet moments within, just observing, without judgment. It's a process, but one I'm enjoyng now. You got yourself out much earlier than me - that's something to feel very proud of - now, you have lots of time to create the Life you want - congrats, man !