The day drinking is where it really unravelled for me and I was drinking to feel normal within a few hours of waking up. My advice would be to see a Dr and be brutally honest about your drinking. There is nothing to be ashamed of and they may prescribe something to help you through withdrawals- the awful feeling you get when you wake in the morning is probably alcohol withdrawal. The anxiety will get better the more sober time you have. Don't worry about moderating or questioning whether you can drink normally, take it one day at a time and give your body a chance to heal. Read here and post if you can as there are some great people who want to help. You will feel better if you stop drinking it only gets worse.