I found every go at recovery was different. My last time was very hard - I felt some relief but it was all very daunting scary and painful. I cried a lot too.
I know why people give up and go back...but I also know the joy and the freedom that's waiting for you if you persevere with this briar
This site is great 24/7 support - use us as much as you need to. You are not alone
have you seen these cravings tips?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
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