Got through the evening sober somehow, thanks for encouragement everyone, was swamped in self pity earlier and went for a lie down in a dark room and drifted off to sleep for a few hours. Really clinging on to the 'this too shall pass' phrase now, but it will and I don't have to drink on these emotions.
I do need to be more assertive and need to work on this, in the past I've let things build up inside me and let it eat away at my inner peace. Its a balance of making it clear when Im upset by a comment without resorting to revenge comments back in spite.
I feel I am learning to cope better with negative feelings this time around, in the past I would have bottled it all up and used the comments as a perfect justification to drink 'I'll show them!!!' type of attitude.
After the sleep I had im now wide awake past midnight, reminds me of the early days when I was coming down and struggling with withdrawal!