Hi Lulu, that's a harrowing story I can relate. I am glad you're feeling good and free at the moment, I know exactly the feeling you mean
Enjoy it! You earned it!
Did the depression come first or the alcohol? I ask myself all the time. I feel like when I was 17 and I was feeling low, I started drinking and it briefly took away the pain. IF ONLY I had found a different way to deal with that feeling of depression other than drinking, it would of only been a period of low mood, not ten years of hell.