FeliciaM-You are in my thoughts as well. Sending you love and strength.
Thank you all again for the support. What an amazing thing it is to be here for each other and not have to go through difficult times alone. So much of my life I thought it was showing strength to say "I've got this, I can handle it myself." Not true.
I have not contacted my ex, though it has been tempting- just to "check-in..." Its not easy, but I realize its best for both of us to not be in contact. Just for today, at least (its a lot easier to think of it that way)