fresh start?
I have been around here before, with several attempts at sobriety. I have not had any real crisis or terrible event that brings me here today, but have realized that this is progressive and am afraid I may never be able to stop. I love wine, and I drink in the evenings. I will declare, "enough" only to find myself having wine, always in the evening, within a few days, then I am back at near daily, if not daily. At least a bottle, often more, or topped off with a beer or two, if I only bought one bottle. So, I see any attempt to limit myself these days is an utter failure.
Today is day 2 and I have not had more than a month sober in a few years. Typically I go a few days and am back at it. WTF??
It makes me feel so weak and wishy washy. And that is not typically me.
I feel like I need a fresh start, because I hate seeing how long the old me has been here, failing.