You've been through a lot recently Jeni. To not to shaken by recent events would be itself cause for alarm.
I don't see my meds as a backward step at all.
They're simply required. I need them to live a quality of life I see as sufficient.
I certainly don't see it as any kind of comment on you as a person, or your recovery.
There are no extra brownie points for being Superwoman.
I really think you are being crushingly hard on yourself here....
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