Coffee not booze... can't sleep and angry... hmmm... lets think about this
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Caffeine can mess me up bigtime. I'm astounded that that is what's become the drink of choice in AA meetings.
And with that out of the way... do you have any plan for your recovery? If I didn't change the person I was when I stopped drinking there's no way I'd have been able to remain sober. That guy needed to drink. Thankfully I was at the end of my rope, literally. I was desperate enough to do anything and everything that was suggested to me. AA was a huge part of that for me. Other people find other ways. This forum is great for suggestions. Hang in there... it definitely gets better, if we're willing to work towards that.