ON A HIGH NOTE, however, I planned and led a biking and camping trip in this weekend for about a dozen friends. We biked about fifty miles through Amish country, looking at leaves, rivers, and farms (and the Amish!), then camped out in darling little cabins. It was cheap, fun, and a great time outdoors.
Keeping my perspective, I never thought I could do something like that, and I know I never would have even tried before my divorce. For all the negatives, there are real positives too. I'm changing and growing, getting braver.
I just need help on these triggers and knowing where to draw the line. I can't do everything through a lawyer going forward. BUT I do feel like, if XAH wants to be a part of DD3's life, that basic exchanges of information should not requires thousands of dollars or acts of God. I don't know what that looks like on my end though.