I am rather new to this forum (couple of weeks) and I have seen the outpouring of support you have gotten here. Frankly, it seems to fall on deaf ears. If in fact you are schizophrenic, you need to get that addressed ASAP. It sounds like you are dual-diagnosed, i.e., addicted and mentally ill. Many people are. I have up close and personal experience with this with a family member.
SR can only do so much. You have to do what it takes to get better, including addressing your mental state. IMO you need to hospitalized and stablized and then go into a long term rehab. Schizophrenia is a very serious disease. Don't mess around anymore. If your point in posting here is to hear people give you sympathy, you have that in spades. But that won't fix a thing! Good luck