Hi Jeremy
If you want a different outcome you're going to need to take some different choices and make some difficult decisions.
That really is what being an adult and a dad and a husband really is, I think.
It's not going to be easy for you - it wasn't easy for me either - Sometimes in the difficult transition phase from addiction to recovery I almost convinced myself things were worse than when I was drunk and high...
but I trusted the people here who told me it got better...and it did
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