I am feeling those things too. It is crazy for this has been going on for months with my ABF. He comes back...he leaves....doesn't know if he wants to come back.....comes back....etc.etc. I allow him to do this to me!! I make excuses he is like this because of his A. - he is sick...he really loves me....this is how he is.... And mostly....because of what D1978 described feeling. I literally beat myself up with these horrible emotions, blames, regrets. So that's the rabbit hole, eh? I need something to describe these outbreaks.
