Falling down the rabbit hole
My exRAB and I split about three weeks ago now. I have been up, down and sideways over this. It was his choice, not mine. Last night into today has been rough. I can't stop thinking about him. I want to know what he is doing and who he is doing it with. Who/what is filling the space I used to fill. For me it is just emptiness and longing. In my head I know I am better off. I am trying to work on me. Started therapy, trying to make plans with friends to do things I have been wanting to do and haven't. It's just so damn hard to feel this lost and alone. I dread waking up because I know I am just going to feel this loss all over again.....
I know it will get better. I have had bright spots the last three weeks. But it is so hard to see those when you are overwhelmed with these negative feelings.