The process is simple, if I want to follow it. The answers await me if I truly want them. I need only sit quietly and ask God to offer the guidance I need. And then I will sit quietly some more.
Quietude has always been where I find my answers and my peace with whatever life hands me. Nature is my special place where I can think and listen to what the breeze wants me to hear. Walking the shore invigorates my spirit and helps me find strength to face what lies ahead.
I have shared recently that my husband is very sick, he is seeing specialist and we are hoping that days ahead for him will be better and trust the miracle of modern medicine and surgery as well as the love of God to take him to a better place with his illness.
As if that wasn't enough...I recently discovered what turns out to be a malignant breast tumour and have had to take fast action to plan a course for myself. I am grateful to live in a country with wonderful health care...I booked myself into one of the best cancer hospitals in the world with one of the best oncologists and will visit there next week to begin what I hope will be a fast and quick process and have this darn thing taken care of.
Needless to say, my mind has been racing lately, and physically I have been running for tests and more tests and making arrangements and trying to coordinate my treatment with that for my husband...and it's enough to make anyone crazy and exhausted.
But...this is Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, and I shall take time for quietude walking in the autumn splendor here. I will have a turkey dinner and thank God for all the many blessings in my life...including wonderful doctors and free medical treatment.
It is in the quiet times and the times of gratitude that my soul finds its peace. It is when I am able to organize "the next step" and prepare for what lies ahead. I shall remind myself of this often as I go through the days ahead.
Recovery has brought me so many blessings, including the blessing that today I live in faith rather than fear. Fear is no longer an option in my life, it's a dark place where I lived for far too long. So today I will live in the light, embrace the beauty and find quietude for my spirit and mind.
Happy Thanksgiving to my Canadian friends here, and happy "quietude" for all who are overwhelmed by the "noise" of chaos and busy-ness.
Love you all
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